.put on your red shoes and dance the blues.

An olive green crayon, a mirror and a pack of cigs.

Because I'm ignored or at least I feel like I am, I'm narcissistic and, well... I smoke.

Deep.

Poor Brian Jones. Really.


For anyone who doesn't know, Brian was the founding member of The Rolling Stones. The rest of the band basically used to bully him because he was such a drugged up mess, and a month after they kicked him out the band, he died. Sad stuff. Have a look at the article.

The 80's band Psychic TV recorded this song about him, the lyrics are wonderful.

And also, a picspam, because he was adorable. :)

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i really wish I felt normal, or at least could predict when I'm going to have one of these weeks.
Sometimes I just wake up and have this hatred for everyone I  know, and I feel like everyone hates me and if I leave the house everyone's going to laugh at me. i got on the bus to go to college today and  started panicking because I thought people would be angry at me, so I got off and walked home again.
I feel so low today it's actually making me feel tired. I was in such a good mood last week it doesn't even make sense. I hate myself for being this way. I really don't know how to snap out of it, and I'm probably going to have to go back out yet because I have to meet someone after college, which I'M totally not up for either, as I'Ve convinced myself he hates me too.
I can't even cry, I just feel like absolute shite.

Because bipolar_brittagged me. :)

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Music meme stolen from eugenetapdance

1. Guns N' Roses
2. David Bowie
3. Manic Street Preachers
4. Smashing Pumpkins
5. Nirvana
6. The Smiths
7. Suede
8. Blur
9. My Chemical Romance (Old Stuff Only. Fuck TBP and onwards.)
10. Bob Marley
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Yesterday was odd.
I was sat at the bus stop when this woman suddenly came and sat next to me and said-
"Oh, don't you look like Peaches Geldof? Doesn't she? God, so much."
And my friend just said-
"Oh does she?"
And she kept saying it to me.
She asked me for a lighter for her cigarette and after I gave her it she got on the bus at the back, behind us, and started talking about how I looked like Peaches Geldof to people in the back of the bus.
It scared me. XD

I was walking down the street today, and a man walked towards me, and I literally jumped about 3 metres sideways away from him. I don't really know why, I think he just shocked me. He started laughing at me anyway, and he went--
'Sorry love, I didn't mean to scare you, I only wanted the time.' Real apologetic, like.
I felt like a right prick.

Anyway. Picspam, because I love Richey Edwards <3



 

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I like having friends who are naive in some areas, because I can give them advice. No one gave me advice when I was naive did they? Oh no, I had to learn the HARD way that mixng lager with about 200ml vodka in the same cup was a BAD idea.
it's always the oldest who gets into that sort of shit, because they don't have anyone to tell them otherwise. :)
 

Comment here to receive four people to snog, shag, marry or throw off a cliff.  

 

toadclubber

 gave me:

David Bowie 
Axl Rose
Adrian Veidt
Richey Edwards

( oh. wow... pictures. )

So, here are all my previous fics. All of them are Watchmen currently, because of how obsessed with it I was when I first created my Livejournal account earlier this year, but I'm looking to change that. I might go all teenage girl on your asses and write some bandfic. :) I'd really appreciate some criticism and reviews for these, seriously. Make me love you forever. =]

P.S - I really was fond of Adrian, wasn't I?

Alone In The Dark - Dan/Adrian
Laurie's death prompts Dan to pay Adrian a visit. Gloomy stuff, you have been warned.

Human - Doc. Manhattan/Adrian
In sleep, he was nothing more than a frightened child.

He Shot Me Down -Comedian/Ozy
Ozymandias' first and only defeat came at the hands of the Comedian.

Words Won't Save You Now -Adrian
Adrian considers the world he's changed, his childhood, and how he became the way he is.

And the yet to be Watchmen/Bowie Crossover Series:

Saints & Sinners -Bowie/Adrian
The first in the series, and also the end of the story. A gun, a chair, and an unoccupied room.

Red Lights & The White Lady -Bowie/Adrian/Eddie
Sex, Drugs, and Sarcastic Jokes.








 

Me and my best friend went out last night and bought a load of scented Blunt wraps and Weed Lollies. You'd think nothing would happen, but you really do get an effect off them. Not the same as smoking it obviously, but still.

We went to the fair and went on about 5 different waltzers before we found the hardcore strobe  lightning ones that go on for about 10 minutes at 100 mph. They're just the best. Oh, and some boy went flying out of one of those G-Force rides, and my mate was on it when it happened. He hit the barrier outside the road about 2 inches below his spine. Lucky bastard.

I'm really missing my fic writing, so any prompts or anything would be nice. I really just ramble on in these posts about nothing now. I'm going to get a list of my previous fics up later on I think. =]

Oh god, lust is a terrible thing.

Especially when it's for someone that's off limits, and you never thought you had a chance with anyway.  And then that someone starts flirting with you  really badly and invites you to a party with them. Tut.

And this isn't the one I usually go on about, this is a new one. And it's a lot more about shallow lust than anything else.  GET OUT OF MY HEAD BRAIN.

I'm a whore.
I wish I wasn't sooo obsessed with guys. I need an actual boyfriend, so I can stay focused. Seriously.

In other news, I got a letter today saying that I have apparently won an award from something I did in High School before I left. It's either under General Excellence, Progress, or Achievement.

What the hell? I want to know now.

Also, my friend takes good close up pictures of me-

Stolen from bowie_glam

1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine.

2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Here is a reason why people on drugs are hilarious.

Me and my friend were sat in her front room getting high whilst watching this weird programme that was just basically fish swimming around in a tank.  Her parents were away so we were just trying to do as much as we could get away with in that time.

Anyway, yeah.
There was this crash coming from outside, and the pair of us get really paranoid when we're high, and her parents have all these antiques in their front room, including a sword.
Yes, a sword.

So we decided it'd be a good idea to go into the bag garden with this sword to see who was outside. And my friend was like holding it out in the air and swiping it so it made that SHWWWWWIIIING noise, and I was going--

'YEAH! Bet you wish you chose next door now!'

And that's when her cat jumped off the top of her shed, and we both ran inside screaming.
It was the cat. :(
 

Fuck that film is amazing.
If you like period dramas, bisexual orgies and bloody gore, you need to see it. Seriously. :)
I'm going to read the book now.
Because I'm the sort of person who watches the film first.
Yeah.

On another topic, here are 5 songs I have recently decided are beautiful yet sad-
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Comment on this post. I will choose seven interests from your profile and you will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.

bipolar_brit  gave me:
12oz mouse, lambert and butler, the electric chair, guns n' roses, southern accents, ginger hair, 80's highschool movies

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Fuck college. It's bollocks.
And fuck him for standing me up today.
I was stood there for like an hour.
Today has been a very bad day. Just like yesterday.
I'm thinking of quitting college also.
I don't know what i'd do, but I just know I hate it and it isn't worth it to me at the moment.
I might just go for a walk  in a straight line and see where I go.

Oh fuck me.
Today was shit. Me and my friend went to a concert and I had half a bottle of vodka and now I'm so angry and upset even now I'm  basically sober.

I hate how everything's so different. I miss being a naive 14 year old who's biggest problem was like... I don't know. Nothing.
Well, actually, that's a lie. But in retrospect it seems better.  I definetly was naive. I didn't even know what a blowjob was.

But yeah. I don't like being treated like an adult now. It's like everything's been torn away and now I have to be 'grown up' all of a sudden and I just don't have a fucking clue how to be an adult, because...I'm like 16...which is 2 years younger than being a legal adult anyway, and mentally I'm about 10.  I just have never matured.

Oh and also-- after about a year of  just smoking because I felt like- I'm now addicted, and my money is just falling out of my purse because of it and it's pissing off. And it's my fault too, which makes it about 100 X more frustrating.

Plus-- I'm infatuated with someone who I'm pretty sure is just telling me he thinks so much of me so he can have another 'option' when the relationship with the girl he 'has no feelings for' fails. I'm so sort of... I don't know, head over heels for him that I just hang on his every word. If he liked me as much as he said he did, why wouldn't he split with her and go out with me? He doesn't like me that's why.

I don't know how to live my own life. How shit.